I think Jaime makes me sad. 

He makes me feel insecure and sad. 

I want distance more probably. I don't even know what I want. 

I want things from him that he is unable to give me. So, maybe I'm delusional. I think I'm definitely delusional.

Time is passing so slow these two days. 

I think I have some thing inside me that feels bad and I don't know why. 

It's probably the hangover and I will feel a lot better when I have had food and friends with me. I go through these intense feelings and I don't know what triggers them. I think seeing text messages in regards to Jaime is the trigger for a lot of pain. I also hate how he lies to my face. He lies and he lies.

I think I need time to cool down. I am angry and hurt and sad. 

 I think talking to my mom stresses me out. 

I don't know why they frustrate me so much. 

I feel very distant from my family. I think I rely on Jaime a lot but I should slowly wean off of him. I think he already has people that he leans on, so I probably should not lean on him as much. 

It is hard to move on when we still see each other so much.