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I wish I had the liberty to choose whatever that I want to learn rather than having to stick to a certain curriculum or syllabus. Yet, such is the state of the economy where everybody is capitalistic and selfish. Hence, why I'm somewhat being forced to go through educational programs that suck the money and soul out of a me. Sigh what a pity.

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