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 I am tired.

I don't know how and why. 

I don't even know what I need anymore. I think I am just overwhelmed with everything and anything. Nothing really helps. And it's never ending. I want to leave badly. 

I just want a break. 

I think this is the plan. 

Right now, it's the end of March. I am already halfway done with my 401k account. I will be fully done by the end of June, which means I could technically quit end of June. Another stock vest would be on August 2025 and my final stock vest would November 2025. 

I would need to finish my taxes soon. That should be done this weekend hopefully. Looks like I am very very cash poor. I think I really need a financial plan to take a break for a bit. 

Maybe I should also drill down on why I feel as burnt out as I do. I think my apartment's a mess. I probably have anxiety just due to having loads of stuff just everywhere. 

And maybe Clarisse is right. I should just be writing lists. Just tons and tons of lists. 

1. Make financial plan

2. Do taxes

3. Clean apartment - storage coming on April 1st 

4. Fix linkedinqueens - want to make it autoscrape. 

5. Close out all the ICMs

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