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 Your'e not lonely boy. 

I hate my heart reaching out for you so much. I can still feel your skin lingering on mine. The warmth. Your smell. Intoxicating. 

I love you so much. Your touch is comforting. I just feel myself getting drawn to you over and over again. I tell myself you're bad for me. Cause you are. My brain gets so jumbled around you. We are not good together. We really weren't good together. You're a great person but oh my god. 

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