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Moving to Chicago

I've moved to Chicago.

It's a big step in my life. My first time wearing big girl pants. Being a full grown adult with responsibilities and what not. And getting paid for something that I do. I lack a lot of life experience that other people have. I'm rich in others, but I tend to rely a lot on people around me. Poor Justin. I feel bad for him for being the butt of my anxiety and depression.

I came to realize I have really bad self-esteem issues. Any bad feelings that I generate, any anxiety and any depressive thoughts come from the fact that I believe that I'm not good enough.

Poor Justin again. Butt of my horrible self-esteem issue. I sabotage our relationship once everyday to make myself feel better.

I overcompensate by being too arrogant. It's a shitty thing.

Seeing another therapist on Monday. Here's to hoping that she's any good.