Friday, November 28, 2014

Blame

Maybe I put the blame on everybody except myself.

Perhaps what went wrong was me.

Kinda depressed sometimes. Been blaming the whole world. Maybe the fact that I don't have many close friends is my fault. Maybe my incapability to open up to others is my own doing.

Yet, I don't think I can do much about it.

I need help.

Maybe I'm just not as strong as I think I am. The years of mental abuse may just possibly leave scars on me rather than bouncing off harmlessly as I have believed.

I need to smoke.

This is killing me.


Monday, November 24, 2014

Confirmed

Hello guys :)

Kinda happy these days cause I'm living on my own personal Cloud 9. I kinda can say "screw you" to all my homework and assignments, raise my middle finger proud and straight to my coursework marks and basically ignore all there is to do for school work. Heck, I can even be rude to anybody I fancy and be a total bitch and piss everybody off.

"Why?" you may ask in a polite way but in fact you don't really care

Well, I got into the UNIVERSITY of MY CHOICE. Which came as a shocker to me cause I ain't the best among my peers that also applied there. Like I'm the runt of the CGPA puppy litter, the one with the mediocre CGPA and also the one that handed all her application materials way overdue of the deadline.

So well, gonna update here a lot in the near future I think. Since I will be all alone in some foreign and cold country with awesome sights and photography opportunities what with the snow and Christmas and autumn. Plus I should write down my story somewhere. My parents paid a lot to send me overseas, I should document all them experiences.

I think I may be a winter kind of person. I can't say for sure, not having ever experienced winter, but words like fleece, leaves, snow, Christmas, cinnamon, and gravy are all kind of my favorite words. Hm but going to the States makes me a HAPPY HUMAN.

Toodles with all my love