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I used to think I was funny

Self depreciating humor, thought I was brainy.

Can't say that anymore, I got some self worth, can't hurt, got some therapy.

I had a rebirth, hence nowadays I ain't funny

I'm intense, I bring the common sense, and some pretense, I do the dance.

Is that better?

Is this me? that can't be. Am I finally free?

I don't know. I can't see.

Only several years from now, we'll see if this is truly me.

I fear then, I'll be further out in sea.

Losing sight of land. I'll nevermore play in the sand. 

 

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